10.20.2010

Dazed & Confused, but Hopeful & Excited!

In regards to my 'caught-off-guard' day @ bible study today:

Amazing, scary, amazing, nervous, amazing, embarrassing, amazing, freeing, amazing, unexpected, amazing, shocking, amazing, gently pushed (lol), amazing, mascara filled tears, amazing, faith, amazing, new fellowship, amazing steps towards God and heart healing today!

I know I don't speak well in front of a crowd (& that crowd might only be 1 for me to shy away), but I usually write pretty well in order to get across what needs to be said....feelings too. Today, I have writers block. Even my fingers want to cry with overwhelming feelings. I didn't know this was all out there waiting for me! Sure I might hear it but thought it was for everyone else but me. Honestly, still trying to grasp the concepts; the truths but I'm in the middle of it and opening up my heart.

I'm so incredibly grateful for the donations & scholarship (of which I admit the proud in me is embarrassed about) I was given today to be able to attend an upcoming womens retreat....that, frankly, I made a point to put out of my mind cause there were too many "obstacles" and I was scared (still am). The obstacles are being crossed out one by one and I will not disappoint those who made it all happen. I will not disappoint myself......I like the sound of that! :)

WOW! Thank you for today!

Arise, shine, for your light has come,
and the glory of the LORD rises upon you.

Isaiah 60:1

~Susan


P.S. Bible study course is Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul (by John & Stasi Eldredge)

1 comment:

Its just me said...

you are an amazing woman! I am soo excited to see God reveal Himself to you. All of your feelings are totally normal. I LOVE love LOVE love YOU!!!!!!!